If you have ever had to put a pet "to sleep" because of an illness you will understand the pain involved in this decision. I was so excited the day I picked up my new baby boxer T Rex. He was a seal brindle boxer from Texas (the name). He was so ugly, I couldn't not take him. He was obviously the runt, rolled skin, dark black face with pink nose and running droopy eyes. He grunted and made funny noises when I picked him up and the girl just watched me in surprise as there was an immediate bond and she knew although he was not the pick of the liter,he was going home. I showed him off every where to everyone and most of the time the reactions were the same- A face only a mother could love...
And LOVE LOVE LOVE I did. I poured so much love on my new son and he just ate it up. However, he was an incredible hand full and REALLY, only a mother could love (lol). When i had his ears cropped (would not go through that again!!!) it was a nightmare and I discovered quickly, he was definately my son. He was way too smart for his (and my) good, way too stubborn, defiant when felt slighted, and the most emotionally expressive facial expressions ;times it was hard to remember that he was a dog! He didn't think HE was and I didn't treat him that way either. Needless to say I could go on and on with stories but back to original point of this "story"....
It was obvious that my son had a full life and was struggling with pain and illness to hang on but I didn't have the heart to watch it. I was ready to deliver my third human son within weeks and lugging my Rex (90lbs) in my arms and carrying him outside to do his duty was taking its toll on me. When he didn't move at all for several days and looked at me so mercily I wept while laying on the floor next to him for a day as we decided together, what we needed to do. Sorry, needed a moment to choke back the tears as i am plummeted back to that time....
Standing in the vet office saying our good-byes I thought certainlly I would go into labor, it was herendous! As the vet did his job and i held my boy sobbing he placed his head so gently on my Baby bump and let out a final sigh. I stood frozen for awhile before the vet said, "I think, maybe it would be good for you to leave now".......
Skip the coping,or not, story and slide on a few weeks past to, bam! Re-Enter my Rex. Awoke in the middle of the night, I sat up and looked at the chair across from the bed and there sat My Rex! Looking at me and snorting his famous greeting. I sat staring for a few minutes trying to figure out if I was dreaming or actually awake when a gush of blood enveloped me. I was awake for sure and hemoraging everywhere. I ran for the bathroom for a towel and I will fast forward a bit here but on to ER! It was an emergency delivery and I was facing death, not sure if my son would be ok or what. My mom raced to the house to care for the other two human sons as I was in for a fight for my and my new son's life.
When my mom came to welcome our new son she had a talk with me in the hospital. She explained her version of the terror she faced when she came to the house. She said, I though i was just out of my mind with fear. Now, however, I realize what an undeniable miracle that occurred! You see, she explained that as she walked up the walk to the door there was Rex, standing guard at the door. He greeted her with his usual snorting and dancing and showing her how happy he was she was there. He stayed with her a little while as she addressed the horrific scene and went to bed for a little rest before the other two human boys awoke to the surprise.
I love my son Rex and he frequently lets me know he is on guard for me even today!
Some bonds are fated, some bonds are indestructable, Some loves will transcend ALL ELSE!!!
I LOVE You my son T REXAS from TEXAS!!!
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