How Old were You?

Do you remember?
When was it that you made the choice to disconnect and protect your heart from the sting of Love?
Can you count on one hand the number of times an event, a person, a perceived disappointment gave you a justified sense of reason to believe that Love is painful, dangerous, stupid, unreliable, too much trouble, too risky, unfulfilling...............I think you get the idea. .......
You see at that moment, most likely a highly charged emotional explosion of overwhelming feeling,thought,chemicals and body sensation caused you to decide, imprint a code corruption,deviate from your blueprint and create a false fragmented self.
Most likely also the first time was a very influential tender age and was repeated on several occasions seeking safety and comfort and coping causing a deeper and deeper rut path in the programing until it became a familiar self soothing habit for disconnection.
Further and further away you run from the truth of your Being- the opposite direction of the very Love,Safety,and Comfort that which you are seeking.
There are many, many internal voices which can be heard. Do you recognize them? Are you able to discern their source, their original wound,the Protector and shield from your Authentic Voice?Is it what keeps you focused on the exterior events and people and activities, not wanting to weed through the inner sea?
The inner sea is the originator for the magnetic cup that you are sending out to be filled. The dive inside is not for the faint of heart yet will deliver you to Love's True Gate and you will be amazed by the buried treasures unearthed and wonder why you hesitated and needlessly waited,weighted with untruths and bare hook in the wrong pond,the fish of True Love swimming just beyond..........