How did You spend the last morning of 2012?
With my dog hogging the bed, as usual but keeping me snuggly warm :) and my cat's warm and obscene purring on my heart,wrapped in my two quilts and PJ's under my two sweatshirts I peeled my self from my embedded tomb long enough to grab a mug of French Vanilla coffee and head back under covers.......
You think maybe it is time to get serious about moving to a warmer climate? Though I truly love the changing seasons and the beauty of each maybe a visit rather than stay would be a better way? Any way, tangent astray there is more important to say........
Back to the warm part. All three re-snuggled in place,from this cozy place there are things to embrace. I look at my cat swirled around my chest with a delicious expression on her face, bliss, may describe it, so warm and purring overwhelmingly,she squints at me (like cats do, as if to say full of attitude, I know you're looking at me but really, don't disturb me!).Hard to believe just a few hours ago I jumped from bed to go break up the terrifying sounds of her attacking the other cat. Or, just a few hours before even that when she hissed and spat as my son walked past her. Is she a reflection of me or what? I mean some moments so incredibly gentle,loving,and tender, and the next, Look Out! I remember saying to one of my teachers this year, so intently serious (as I usually am,while others find it so humerous,I Don't) with a rumpled face and my impatients evident- Really, I am so frustrated trying to find my sweet spot between Fire and Water at peace! (this comment Severely multidimensional) SPAT,SPAT and then just as quickly my face changed to reflect the sad guilt of confusion when he simply shook his head from side to side and let out a little chuckle and BIG sigh? I still don't understand completely what he was saying without words but I suppose, on some level I really heard it loud and clear.....
Being a Pisces sun sign and Aquarious moon sign with a rising Aries in first house ascendent. Did I really Just Say that? Two fish swimming in opposite directions,Fire and Water, Age of Pisces -Old,Age of Aquarious-New, any wonder why being One is such a battle of Two? LOL,without involving anyone else in the fued,heeehee What a mix bag of tricks I be.....
Needless to say, I'm reflecting on 2012 the scenes of the movie sliding through my awareness. The happy, the sad, the joy, the anger, the Reality of each and every moment. The twists and turns and off road adventures.The Learning,LEARNING, and yes more learning. The EXPERIENCES!!!The people,places,things,the lessons and pains,and gains that each brings......The opening of heart, the closings and re openings, the excitements,the healings, forgiveness of some and Mostly ME,the FEELINGS!!! The false starts, the endings, the windings in this direction then that and then the BackTrack!
I am Grateful for it ALL and before I pack it away in the Cabinet Marked 2012 in the file to the right at the end of the hall,I believe it's time to jump out of bed for one last call,what damage can I do to end TwoThousandOneTwo Before it fades away tucked safely in memory and I start a New Play, In a New Way,New Year, New Cycle -1 a Fresh Day,Blank Canvas Waiting A New Creation......Spat,Spat,Smile,Lights dim the the curtains sway, a moment of silence just before the Spotlight clicks ON!
In deep love,gratitude,awe,wonder,joy and reverance- NAMASTE!
FULLY ALIVE,ENDLESS FUN
The OBSERVER OR THE OBSERVED
The Participant or the Instrument
Childlike wonder and What's next
Alone or ALL ONE
The Big Picture or a limited perspective
All at once or from here to there within the blink of an eye and a change in frequency, Identity VS Influence
The dimension for E MOTION,flipping channels
Shall I keep going? What do YOU Hear? care to share, we already are!!!
I am on my knees. My white knuckles are grabbing my shoulders as I cry out,
my breath a heave,please,please,send repreave! With each news release...
I apologize, gulping tears,
uncontrolable body shaking ,inconsolable
Voice quivering and screaching:
HEAR MY PLEAS,
Forgive me in my human fragility,
Forgive me my confused faith
My judgement be replaced
with compassion seeping through my raw torn heart.
My mind can not comprehend
my emotions are on a wild rampant course seeking release
my body numb with shock
my spirit holding me rocking
huming a sweet melody.
I throw my hands in the air, I plead,
take this and fast! We require instant Big Love!
I do not wish to retaliate. I do not wish to obliterate or deliberate or justify or pry or analyze WHY!
No shame or blame or fame or repressed to tame or claim lame and insane , this too is humane? or Human or not, I must accept it as is, all the same.
How can events occur? I do not need to further deter... the Absolute Truth : I am he, I am each and each is me. I see, I feel, I think, I Believe, I Live, It is real, indeed no seperation to conceal.
I am one human with the same capacity, all with the same capacity as me. I ask with humility, Please, I Hand this over to you to heal. This Big Pain, so huge, but I do not refrain, my cry not in vain, for all is Sacred.
But, this, this one not to be handled in seperation and delusion, fear and retribution. My small self can not hold, no matter how bold, I completely surrender to you to enfold.
I honor and appreciate the courageous messengers on missions, No Victims.
Wrap us all in your embrace
No More Trauma to the Human Race!
Deliver peace, love, harmony, honor in its place!
Big Love Big Grace
bestow the smiles back to our face
All restored in Divine Pace
Big Pain,Big Love
Transformation: process of change
Beauty, Opportunity,Crystal Clear New View New Energy
How will you utilize new resources? Will you scramble to hold on to the old? Will you revel in awe and excitement? Will you intellectualize and study to seek understanding? Will you in child like wonder explore more?
Have you prepared your physical vessel for the ride? How will you go about adjusting it to survive and then thrive? Adaption and discovery, New Skills and talents and structures and teachings and healings New Leaders,and and and..........
Your passions will guide you to your share of the New Abundance Available to One and ALL who choose to answer the call..........
Those who have been preparing In Wait will Rise with the opening of the New Gate no need to fear or hesitate your New Equipment is installed no need to waste time trying for overhaul the destruction is through time for The New
Open All your Eyes the Beauty has arrived !!!!!
In appreciation to the diligence of the ground crew Indescribable Gratitude Thank You Thank You Thank YOU!!!!
There is a road beyond the dead end
How will you get from here to there?
One step at a time in the direction with certainty and knowing with each step that you are going in the right direction regardless of appearances......
or sidesteps and course corrections
What do you see
when you close your eyes?
or lies from others eyes?
What do you hear
when you close your ears?
or everyday atrocities?
What do you feel
when you sit quietly in body?
Gentle angels kiss
or pain,strain and remiss?
What do you taste
dancing upon your tongue?
Sweet angle dew
or thick poo poo stew?
What do you smell
wafting your nose?
Angel breath rose
or decaying throes?
You have more senses
awaiting your interpretations
Do you Believe ?
Do You wish to be fully Live?
the senses are always alive....
Beyond what your mind
Strive to Survive
Sometimes the most loving thing I can say
Does not generate from my mind and
and exit my mouth, but
It is Loud and Clear
Radiating energy from my open compassionate heart, streaming through the light emanating from my eyes,the heat of the gentle touch from my hand,and the tear that drips from my cheek. Is that too strong, meek, or weak?
I breathe in this loving silence and release without words or claim, to limit the love and power that just is, ever so available and subtle,constantly communicating with me, through me, through you. It is a real and universal language we all understand.
Will you lay beneath
the skies with me
holding hands and gazingly
dreaming of farther lands
lighted in the stars?
Will you speak and tell me
what you see
what you feel
what you desire
and make real?
Will you listen with care
as I too share
what I see
what I feel
what I desire
and make real?
Will you lay beneath
the skies with me
holding hands and gazingly
You Can Choose an Upgrade in an instant of thought........
For long it has been fed to us that we must conform to the limits of circumstances or unsatisfying experiences and this IS NOT SO unless you believe it and give your consent and power in agreement to remain constricted and oppressed. You will continue to play in the field of fear and control and give away your Power Of Choice to Choose Another Field in which to play this gift of life.
The Power is Yours to command, direct, AND assume responsibility of. You can Re-Claim it or continue to allow another to benefit from your source of energy. There is no need to struggle and fight it is your automatic birthright!
You need only Believe It, Accept It, Claim It,Account for it with complete responsibility
and ReSume Inner Authority of your sovereign connection and how you intend to Create and experience your creations.
The inherent Power you are is not an option,it is standard equipment if you are breathing and moving about in your physical body(tool). You need only in a second (for you view from linear Time illusion) to remember and direct your awareness with your Thoughts- your vibrational offering- to form the structure of your Beliefs-your choice of experience- with which you use to tell your body which action from which you wish to move about and experience as you. As pure consciousness you communicate and engage as you instruct and utilize your gifted tools specifically for your design and use of which You Choose unless you do not claim responsibility to manuver about. Other's are all too eager to utilize any and all available power sources not claimed.
Your resources are not restricted to the ends of your physical body, you have much Power and Energy in your other bodies, which not all of you yet see nor allow yourself to believe,non the less is completely available to you when you choose to tap it.
It is not painful,struggle and strife,this life that you have been led to believe You Can Choose to upgrade in an instant. You do not need to earn it or prove or deserve it.It is not lost nor can it be taken by another. You are your judge and jury.You will be proud of your actions and behaviors that you will participate in when you align with your Power and Choose from this point. It is Sacred, It is Yours.....
It is available in each breath, ea
What is Your Choice?
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