no vaseline

just sittin and chillin with a friend when:

friend to me: Susan, what's on your mind?

me to friend: nothin really......

friend to me: well, you are rather gloomy looking, what's wrong?

me to friend: mmmmm,nothin really......

friend to me: well, usually you're smiling and laughing, what is wrong?

me to friend: I guess i ran out of vaseline (let me clarify- this is an old beauty pageant trick for great big grins, put your other thoughts away please!, or maybe it was just me,heeheee, anywheeew......)

friend to me: what?! why can't you tell me what is wrong? it isn't nice being shut out. (as he gets up and walks out of the room)

me to self: well, so much for honesty and self-disclosure.

it is any wonder why I don't always share what runs through this mind. sometimes, I walk in the shallows rather than diving in the deep, if I don't get myself, why would anyone else?