Me

People who personally know me (which is not easy nor are there many) get that I am forever learning about something. I am not convinced I know myself nor that anyone else can know us any further than the level that we know ourselves(oops another ramble,back to my original intent, see what I mean LOL) I truly find research and investigating all angles of a subject to the possible accusation of obsession. Because i so  enjoy taking learning to deep levels i may spend years touching in and out of subjects,usually several at a time, picking up ,experimenting,studying,talking, etc. then drop it, move on to another and maybe circle back and re discover and on and on. Seems this is not that unusual as life is cyclical and spiral dimensional (rather than circular) progression.

In high school, yep , don't remind how long ago that was, I took a fascination with studying how family environment affected the forming of who you understand yourself to be and the life you want to have. I spent much of my time researching. How odd for such a topic at that age. When others were individualizing themselves, I did not focus on myself but on the factors that create a self,mmmm,raise of my eyebrow! Then, I dropped it all and decided I was a lost cause so heck with self understanding and opted for more superficial existence. Or so I thought anyway.

I took an interest then to relationships and dove heavily into astrological influence on connections to others. Yep, I know still an odd angle for such a young person, while others where out engaging in "relationships" I focused on researching what influences how a person chooses another and the unseen influences on the effectiveness of the relating.  mmmm, interesting! Again, feeling I was a lost cause dropped it and moved on to just having fun with people. Or so i thought anyway.

Seeing a pattern here? Well, anyway there have been many in and out dancing with several consistent interest in certain topics which at the times I have not always Seen........I won't bore you with the history, trust there is a rather eclectic one. What I am really touching on here is I have found it frustrating that I have not fit into any such analytic tools no matter how many times or angles I tried. So back to astrology and a deeper investigating from another angle.  What has been brought to my attention and has been rather troubling is that some people actually limit there life experiences to following certain tools and do not waver from them. Which again if you know me, nothing brings out the rebel in me more than to realize someone may be trying to fit me in a box! That may be in my chart somewhere?! LOL

Have you looked into yourself, your life as it has unfolded in comparison to your natal birth chart and studied yourself? Do you realize there are some that go about life interacting with it and others based on this information! Is it ethical for someone to "look" at "who" you are according to this information and make assumptions, predictions and decisions about you based on this information? is it ethical for You to approach relating to others based on "looking" at this information of another? Are tools abused when they are used this way? I mean even you don't know how you will exercise your free will choice in every situation .

Is it possible to be open and relating with another without studying them but simply relating to another and letting the experience of the two of you create what wishes to be without predicting what some tools (guides not absolutes) suggestion influencing the authenticity of experience? I mean isn't the point of filters to be utilized as a point of reference not necessarily the Only Truth and Perspective? What if relating from the heart space rather than mind space was allowed and people were allowed to authentically express organically? Is this in my chart?

Predictably unpredictable,Is the thrill of having Some mystery in life such a bad thing?